Mr. Porter: I’ve worked this hard so you wouldn’t have to go through what I did.
Felicity Porter (Keri Russel): No dad, you made it so I’d have to go through exactly what you did! I know you want me to follow in your footsteps, but I just…basically, I can’t.
Felicity: So, basically I’ve given up everything my parents ever planned for me, everything I ever expected…all for a boy I don’t even know.
Felicity (to Sally): I guess what I’m saying is this might all be a colossal mistake, as my dad would say, but on the other hand it may…maybe it’ll save my life or something.
Ben (Scott Speedman): So, what’s going on?
Felicity: Um, I just want to uh preface this by saying that uh I don’t want you to feel weird about anything I’m about to say at all.
Felicity: Uh, the thing is I came to New York um mostly because of you. (laughs) Yeah, I had these sort of um intense feelings for you back in high school and uh even though I know that we never really talked before graduation, except that one time when I was passing out flyers for the blood drive…
Ben: (shakes head in confusion)
Felicity: Anyway, maybe the fact that we never did talk was why I had those feelings because now, of course, I realize now that it was a crazy thing to do, to follow someone I don’t know 3000 miles and I sort of panicked about it but I just wanted you to know that I’m past that and I’m…I’m totally okay with it now. I mean it. You know because it’s not really about you so much anymore. I’m here now you know because…I’m here.
Felicity: So, um, what are you thinking.
Ben: I’m…honestly, honestly…I’m just, I’m just…I’m flattered by the whole thing. I’m flattered.
Felicity: Good! That’s really a perfect, perfect answer.
Felicity: You made me fall for you and this is what’s not fair, you knew it and you liked it!
Felicity: How could you lead me on? You made me fall in love with you!
Ben: You know what? You’re acting crazy! All I did was be nice to you. I never asked you to come here, that was your choice not mine. How could you think that you’re in love with me? You don’t even know me.
Felicity: I’d never made a substantial choice in my life and that’s why I came here. I thought it was you, but you were just really the excuse.
Noel (Scott Foley): Stay in New York or perish!
Ben: You know what? Not everybody’s like you. All right? Crazy, sensitive, and always judging everybody.
Felicity: I don’t always judge everybody, I always judge you.
Felicity: The last thing I ever wanted to do is make you feel anything less than amazing.
Sally: Listening to your tape, I was reminded of this poem. It has the central question: Is it harder to count on someone or to know that you’re being the one counted upon? Anyway, there’s this part that goes: “if equal affection cannot be, then let the more loving one be me.” Have you ever read that one? It’s one of my favorites.
Sally: Love is complicated, full of sacrifice and compromise. But, maybe that’s the best part. When you see someone in love you want to do whatever you can for them because the truth is…you want to be them.
Felicity (talking to Ben): The truth is I can’t be with you like this. I mean, I know I said that I could, but I can’t. I just can’t compromise myself like that. I mean I’m an emotional person. I feel things and I need to be able to get upset and talk about how I’m feeling. I mean that’s just…that’s who I am and I can’t change it. I don’t want to. And the thing is you know that, you knew it and you still pursued me because you want something with me, you just aren’t strong enough to have it which…in a way makes you a coward. And the saddest part is that…one day you’re gonna wake up and you’re gonna realize what you missed and it’s gonna be too late.
Felicity: It’s one thing to say you’re gonna let go, it’s another to actually do it–to loosen your grip and let yourself fall.